Monday, March 27, 2006
i thought you loved me more than that
aie. the world hates me. seriously la. nobody. i mean NOBODY. takes the initiative to talk to me. i suddenly feel that i'm imposing on them. like. they feel obliged to talk to me cause i started the convo firsti should just shut up and not say anything from now on.french today was totally screwed. i mean. i had an answer ready. but i was too freaked to answer properly. in the end all i managed was: je suis perdue. i'm lost. erps.
m. chan hates me. sigh. i must be the lousiest student ever.
i seriously cannot hold a conversation well with some people. when we're in a group i can just talk and talk. but individually i get tongue tied. what's wrong with me?
i always thought doing a good deed everyday would make me happier. sigh. what a fool. i'm still not any happier than i was before. anyway. stupid of me. doing a good deed is to make other people happy right? but seeing people smile makes me feel happier. that's what's motivating me i guess. sigh. i sound so selfish.
i'm turning into a bloody bitch. BLOODY. i used to look at some people and think: "hey! they think they're so popular, but actually they're all so pretentious." am i becoming like that too?
i love every single one of the moo-ers. i just realized that. they're just like family to me. moo-ers i don't wanna change into someone i don't wanna be. heeeelp.
oh ya. was talking to jiayi today. i wanna take up latin..... but i need a partner. erps. -___-" i think i shall just partner the teacher. :D how cool is that.
dance makes me happy. yet, my standard is dropping. i'll never become as good a dancer as my sister. not even half of her...
dancing makes me happy. at least i can forget everything.
guiyi at 10:06 PM